Sunday, October 29, 2006
5:25 PM
ahhhaha. shall post randomly. just checking if blogger screwed up. like YESTERDAY. argh.
love, wenyun
Sunday, October 08, 2006
4:15 PM
this was koped from wenyun's blog. and wenyun shall post here. (:
largely feeling depressed these few days. teachers repeatedly koping our lunches BECAUSE we cant seem to finish the syllabus in time for the EOYs!? panics. yeah. and then sometimes its kinda weird cause i feel very sad for no reason. see the depression.
miss wong hasnt come for two days and we are like going to die for geog. i mean. agriculture is pretty difficult and as miss ang said. these two elements make up a mixture that is extremely useful during exams: CrAm. there you go. pretty irritated with people around me. during math my two kind tablemates were given the choice to pay attention and they didnt. ended up with them copying my answers all the time. okay lah. maybe im the only one paying attention but since they didnt pay attention, why should i lend them my worksheets and summary sheets in the first place? they could just write down the answers and formulaes themselves. and everytime they dont understand i have to repeat. repeat and repeat again. how irritating. and then i always end up seeming pissed and my tablemate will go sorry.. and i just say its okay. cause im not the kind thats really hard on people. well. thats all i can do isnt it.
and i keep falling asleep when i try to do my work. on the bus someday this week i had a pretty bad headache and when i went home i puked out my lunch. which is pretty bad. like o.O it's just too bad i couldnt see the moon and the haze had to clear TODAY. why not on zhongqiu?! rarh. no one playing lanterns!! boohoo. but then i was busy mugging for literature and history anyway so i couldnt go down and play. haha. see the childishness.
i just cant mug. or even try to. cause everytime i try i will digress and end up doing something else. you know i hope my head splits open and all the answers come spilling out. then i can write with my blood. haha. this sounds morbid but its okay. (: being depressed is a large part of rgs school life. but after a while you will slip out of it. i dont think i will slip out of depression that quick but yeah. im just being plagued with some thoughts that should be put aside.
had pretty horrid dreams recently. mama says its a sign of stress but i dont think so. maybe foreboding. haha. some people insist that dreams can come true, dont they. before rgco concert, i had a bad dream that me and janice had this duet perc piece and we screwed it up very badly. kweky says it wont come true but in the end during concert, me and janice screwed up our parts that had to go along with each other during changdi. very badly screwed. janice told me she was seriously out of time. and mine was an extremely obvious mistake.. and i didnt have taifeng (more like wasnt even taught how.) and looked pretty lifeless for some parts of the song. okay. recent dream was that the four-leaf clover on my handphone somehow by some unknown cause (pretty blurred) got shattered into pieces and i was like watching it break, step by step, piece by piece. and then as i watched it was damn heart-wrenching. i swear i could have cried. then i saw myself somehow crying and crying. then i woke up and cried too. like. i wasnt exactly accustomed to seeing myself cry and seeing something very dear to me be destroyed in front of my eyes. then the other dream was that i put daji photo into a pretty photo frame with a glass covering. then one day, for an unknown reason (blurred again.) the photo frame dropped to the ground and then the glass shattered lah. then its like the glass pointing at someone. i wont say who but i nearly cried when i woke up. it was really really freaky. and then i was quite harrowed after that. cause i couldnt believe the dreams i just dreamt were that horrible. i had a full 8 hour sleep leh! i should be getting sweet dreams.. but never mind.
-sometimes i'm crying aloud, but you cant hear me; i wish that you will hear me for i'm crying for you.
hiatus! back on 20 october. good luck for eoys everyone. though i'll need the luck the most, like lol. =( and good luck for mugging. though i need that luck the most myself once again. i have not covered so many things and i have approximately one week to cover all that. heheh. if you can recall miss wong isnt here to make us mug for geography. rarh. HIATUS!
therefore. i must be extremely motivated to mug. thankyou and goodbye.
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